To The Boy I Loved

To the guy I never got closure with.

To the boy who wasn’t ready for all my love because he wasn’t a man yet. 

To the guy who I never thought I would ever lose.

To the one who stole my heart when I wasn’t looking.

To the asshole who broke it more than anyone ever before him. 

To the man who healed the shattered parts of that heart before the boy in him crushed it again and stole the broken pieces. 

To the guy who always made me laugh or smile in the most random of times. 

To the one who taught me how to love again.

To the guy who melted my insides with just a look or touch.

To the boy I tried to change into something I wanted instead of loving you for who you were at the time. 

To the dick who made me break up with him because he was too much of a coward to do it himself.

To the one I had to watch fall out of love with me.

To the one who fell in love with me.

To the guy I fell in love and taught me how to love again.

To the one who didn’t know what he wanted.

To the boy who let me walk away.

To the one who didn’t come after me.

To the one who didn’t fight for me.

To the one I wasn’t enough for. Who wasn’t enough for me.

To the guy who held me in his arms so I could fall asleep.

To the first guy who I ever let meet my pillow Ter Ter.

To the boy who was so tall it made my heart stop every-time in pure joy.

To the guy who didn’t realize how many sacrifices I made and how hard I tried to love him. 

To the guy who didn’t know how to love me.

To the man who took care of me everytime I got my period and rubbed my tummy for me to make me feel better.

To the boy I could lay next to all day and never have to say a word.

To the boy who knew how to cuddle till the ends of time.

To the boy who got another gf two months after we broke up. 

To the guy who will never know how many tears I cried after I realized you’d never come back for me.

To the guy who I wasn’t enough to open up and let go with. 

To the guy who never loved me as much as I loved him.

To the boy I Loved.........I still love you. I will always love you. 

To the boy I have finally let go of and moved on from.....I forgive you.